~ Soul on Fire ~

You should have punched me in the face when you knew I was lost, 

but you punched me in the heart where it hurt me the most,

you should have killed me with your knife yet you let me live,

as a sad pathetic human garbage dirt and dragged me a mile………

back in the day i used to act like a child thinking life was a game,

yes let it be a game, survival of the fittest will only gain fame,

laugh at me poke me with your swords but why call me a failure.

bitch get a grip, i wish some one had said that to me……………

No one was there only sickness that pulled me into the flames,

the same flames that enlightened me to stand up on my own two feet.

when i say this today when i scream my heart out do you feel the beat

if i could i would squeeze the life out of your swollen brain meat………

Guess we know now, i can really do this, some how i doubt if you can.

see when you have your education and your qualifications you get respect.

that aint wat i need, i gota prove a point i never cared for your neglect.

just a lil more to go, when i make it lets see how far you have come thro?……..

no boundaries no lengths, nothin gon stop me now.

it aint no concept it aint no dream that cant come true.

this aint a mistake, i finally see with my eyes wide open.

motivation courage it all came thro a painful hell that you put me thro…….

I remember that day like it was just yesterday,

packed my bags i was ready to leave in a rush,

darkest memories of a painful past and a bleeding heart,

The worst moment of my life had come true, it was failure.

so called friends of mine laughed at me 

screaming voises and they hooted at me

said i ll never graduate, i will never succeed.

In tears and in fears i took the long walk of shame.

little did i know back then, it was way too painful to handle

yet it was only gon become the best moment of my life,

a story of a life time became my biggest motivation.

what didn’t kill me only made me stronger.

I m half way there now, where are the voices today?

if you think i m gon stop now, son you must be out of your mind!

why so quiet now? so why don’t you fu@king stand up and call me a failure?

look where i am now, and where the fu@k are you?

thats right..

haha…

unto the darkest moon deattached soul in the ocean

free faling under zero gravity endless long tunnel

paranormal feeling rushing through my brain cells

timee to infinity just begun i can hear the moan

of souls crawing thro darkness

hands penetrate thro thick walls

touches my skin to ignite the dormant fire

with in my soul i feel my heart pounding

sound of freedom calling come up here

feels im stuck in the below down the hells

wears me down to thin core bleeding vigours

illuminate my life force the energy source

atoms molecules glu3d to form one big pattern

injected me with syrum of life turned out to be poisonous liquid

wears me down tares me down i shall climb up any fucking mountain

yes thats right i will succeed be the best of the best

you shall applaud me or fucking envy me i cudnt care less

YE i used to be the kid no one cared about

ye thas why you gota keep screamin until they hear you out

a message subliminal hidden in the words

better than fighting out there with my swords……..

hear me out look at the sky witness the stars

when im gone you will see my name written in them bars

hear them clap like an explosion i appear on the big stages

im da magician you wont see nothin but my shades……..

the shiny boots the rocker jeans the guitars playing

life is made the sound of a thousand dragons slaying

thank you for coming along being by my side

you were never forgotten you were my best choice……..

Backthen when i was a kid i was told

life was a fairytale a pot of shiny gold

then waz da turn around, the things changed

flying plates broken mirrors, nah it wasnt staged……..

screaming momma leaving daddy, my hurting head

flowing tears like a river, why am i not dead

growing up in a battlefield, sure messed me up

to accept thingz, i must hv been too young to suck it up……..

how to put out the fire, wish sum1 taught me

all i did was add fuel to it and i didnt see

until it turned into a volcano and blew up in ma face

left four broken souls its too late, so I gave up the chase…….

nothing has changed since, the game plays the way it is

like a record on repeat, it keeps playing in my head you feel me?

i was wrong, no it wasnt a fairytale it never was

more like a left out kid, in a war zone runnin to get out alive……..

time has passed i hope i ve moved on,so wish me luck

scars still remain deep under my skin, so dont cut me up

the hidden pain will remain hidden forever in secrets

when it comes back tonight please save me lord christ……

A year has passed now comes bak a familiar family feeling

i pray to god nothing shall change, to leave me broken again

once again noway, i cant take it this is the last time

i shall pray for every1, hope we shall survive this time…….

A magical feeling took over me into the moon

sudden euphoria blind eyes stuck in a lie too soon

like a drug the addiction never stopped

lasted a moment or two and disappeared……..

eyes half closed the nerves were numb

feeling united the fire burned through the night

ignited soul had searched for it all this while

surrounded by stars floating through the clouds……..

feeling electrified rejuvenated with life

us running like attracted two magnets

even the ticking clock sounded clear

the moment was everlasting had no fear……..

the sparks everytime the heart felt it

flew to the brain faster than lightning

the hypnotic music left me starry eyed

only to fall for this illusion i must have been blind……..

up the ladder another step for me to climb

beginz wit a single step to rise high every time

they say learn to walk first before you run

obstacles are endless so where is the fun…….

walking down the road wit da music blastin

only thought stuck in my mind and repeatin

to be at the top the giant who aint losin

no one to depend on muzt carry on while smilin…….

never give up the fight belief hope nd prayers

listen to me god they are juz players

im in da game to win aite da race has begun

the rest can wait my mind iz set be da 1st cmon…….

two more yearz nd den diz will be done wit

dun care who stays who leaves im my own maker

da timez here nw evry day wasted is another day

i cnt fall behind give me courage nw i m on my way..

A tear falls slowly down the line

dries up fast no itz not mine

your face until the end of time

should lighten up only with a smile……..

wordz flowin like a river

met the sea caused a fever

apologies in the air to cause more pain never

hoping for ur smile to last forever……..

when angels like you cry

i know god will be mad so dun evn try

you ve got wingz now you shd fly

so angel never ever cry…….

from a frog you turned me into a prince

a whole new side tht I see when you smile

when diz war is over oh such a sweet crime

to make me fall in love wit u everytime……..